Tuesday, October 31, 2006
3:26 PM Y
It's over.
Everything is over in 5 days.
But the past 5 days made me realise how complicated this family is. Their indifference towards his death kinda scare me. I remember how badly i cried when someone who is so dear to me passed on. And i was primary 5 back then i think.
Ah Gong has 7 children, 6 sons 1 daughter. Frankly speaking, i wasnt very close to ah gong. In fact, ah gong wasnt close to anyone in the family. As far as i can remember, we only see him once a year, and that is during chinese new year.
Ah gong died from blood cancer and some liver complications cos he is a super heavy smoker. When i visited him at the hospital, the doctor says it's the terminal stage and the only thing they can do is to prolong his life.
Anyway, this whole family tree is complex and all the children are not at all close. That explains why i don't usually mention about my family cos it's too complex and the only kin i have now is my mom and my sis, and maybe, my father.
I saw my father at the wake. I don't know how i should feel.
At the wake, there is this random person who is supposed to be quire accurate in fortune telling. He says that i am determined, stubborn and my health is weak. Yes, he is right. I am stubborn.
Right now as i am typing this entry, i am actually feeling quite weird.
I was running a fever due to the lack of sleep and i am really really deprived of sleep. I shall go take a rest, my body cant take it anymore.
